My Immortal – Evanescence

Sometimes, Kubo-chan touches me.

Now, don’t get me wrong, ‘cause sometimes I like the touch. In fact, most of the time, the touch is okay. But… Sometimes, it feels like the touch is going too far, too much, and it suddenly seems like a vision from my past and I either spaz out, black out, or freak out. I get the same way whenever Kubo-chan uses the chains or cuffs too…

I don’t know why Kubo-chan just suddenly wants to do this, to start all this touching but, after the first few times of trying to stop it, I’ve all just given up and submitted. Kubo-chan always wins, no matter what I try to do. 

“Ngh… Kubo-chan, not so hard,” I gasp out, looking up at Kubo-chan through half-lidded eyes.

His own eyes are obscured too, by his glasses which are beginning to fog up with the heat we’re emitting on this cold winter night. Kubo-chan leans down, his breath lightly brushing against my ear, teasing me. “Well, maybe if you did more of the work, I wouldn’t go so hard on you.” To prove his point, he thrusts again, hitting me squarely so that I gasp, collapsing on my back. 

“Kubo-chan,” I whine, “that’s not fair.”

Kubota merely chuckles and holds his hand up to help me out of the snow. I growl, taking his hand and trying to get the wet mush off of my jacket, throwing the bokuto down in frustration. 

“Don’t be like that, Tokitoh,” he says, still chuckling as he picks up the wooden sword.

I guess that means that Kubo-chan is done now, and we can go home and get some cocoa or coffee. “Why do you have to beat me in kendo, too?”

Kubo-chan does nothing but smile, putting the two swords away and taking my hand so he can lead me back to the apartment.

I hate it when Kubo-chan touches me like this! It always leaves me hot and sweaty and I always get a bunch of bruises, too! Yeah, fighting is fun, but he always chooses how it’s gonna be, so he always picks things I’m not good at.

I know Kubo-chan does this so, if he’s not around, I can defend myself, but I can defend myself just fine without all these different things and Kubo-chan is never going to leave me, so it doesn’t matter! Kubo-chan will always be with me.